FRIDAY

JASON IS BACK!

COMIC-CON

I didn't enjoy the comic-con as much as I did
last year. The pros weren't really as friendly as they have been in the past, and people are so fucking rude!

LOVE SONG

I want you to know, that I'm happy for you

I wish nothing but the best for you both

An ugly version of me

Is he perverted like me

Would he go down on you in a theatre

Does he speak eloquently

And would he have your baby

Bi-Sexuals make really excellent mothers

Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able

To make it enough for you to be open wide,

No

And every time you speak his name

Does he know how you told me you'd hold me

Until you died, till you died

But you're still alive

And I'm here to remind you

Of the mess you left when you went away

It's not fair to deny me

Of the cross I bear that you gave to me

You, you, you oughta know

You seem very well, things look peaceful

I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know

Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity

I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner

It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced

Are you thinking of me when you fuck him (I hope not--he has bad skin!)

Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able

To make it enough for you to be open wide, no

And every time you speak his name Bi-Sexual Boyfriend

Does he know how you told me you'd hold me Until you died, til you died

But you're still alive

And I'm here to remind you

Of the mess you left when you went away

It's not fair to deny me

Of the cross I bear that you gave to me

You, you, you oughta know

Cause the joke that you laid on the bed that was me

And I'm not gonna fade

As soon as you close your eyes and you know it

And every time I scratch my nails down someone else's back

I hope you feel it...well can you feel it

And I'm here to remind you

Of the mess you left when you went away

It's not fair to deny me

Of the cross I bear that you gave to me

You, you, you oughta know

HAVE A GOOD TIME

The Quilter just sent me a text message.

"Have a good time at comic con."

Wasn't that romantic? I haven't called you for two days, but have a good fucking time at the comic convention! Why bother sending me a text message? You obviously don't want me in your life--in fact, you made that clear when you lashed out at me on Sunday.

DUMPED

I love the Quilter.

Yesterday I went to his condo to visit him and he wasn't very happy seeing me. He opened the door and quickly shut it behind him.

Quilter: What are you doing here?

Chris: I came to see you.

Quilter: Why? I thought I told you yesterday that I needed my space. You know how stressed I am with Nathan [his son] coming to visit. You know Bi-Sexual Boyfriend hasn't moved out yet. I thought we talked about this.

Chris: I just missed you and..

Quilter: Right. So, I will call you tonight?

Chris: Quilter, don't bother.

As I walked away, I could hear Bi-Sexual Boyfriend laughing. I haven't heard from since yesterday. Feel free to laugh at me now. He is.

HARDY BOYS

You don't have to be one of the fucking Hardy Boys to know that yours truly has been depressed quite a lot lately. I don't know why it is a battle that I seem to lose quite often, but this evening I had a HUGE discovery.

I have the power to make myself happy. You see, all of my life I have depended on others for my happiness and that's just too much fucking pressure for anybody to deal with. I am not happy, but the power to be happy is within me. I just need to tap into that power and change my world.

JASON

Although the new FRIDAY THE 13th movie doesn't open until next year, I really think that the promotional photo looks very scary and I can't wait to see it. The guy playing Jason is from Bakersfield!

Geez

I just can't believe how stupid I am.

Although most of you already know how stupid I truly am, it wasn't until a few minutes ago that I actually was able to realize it myself. As you all predicted, it was only a matter of time before Quilter reverted back to his "true" self and started to slowly reconnect with Bi-Sexual Boyfriend--thus once again leaving me out in the cold.

The sad part is that I really fell for him (again). Even though Alex told me to be careful. Even though Paul said he was a jerk. All I am is second best to a bi-sexual.

F E A R

In blackest day

In brightest night

Beware your fears made into light

Let those who try to stop what's right

Burn like my power, Sinestro's might!

Ah, sweet drama. For those of you who don't know, apparently Bi-Sexual Boyfriend has threatened to "hurt" me if I don't stay away from the Quilter. I gathered up my balls today and went over to where Bi-Sexual Boyfriend lives, but alas, either no one was home or he was too afraid to come out. Maybe everyone is right--perhaps Quilter and Bi-Sexual Boyfriend has some sick relationship where they enjoy the dram of breaking up and getting back together again. I don't really know.

JOKE!

My mother has got to be fucking kidding me!

Today I told her and my father that Tim and I have decided to end our relationship and she literally breaks down CRYING! What kills me is that my mom knows the ENTIRE situation and has known for a few years that I haven't been happy, but just insisted upon crying!! To make matters worse, my father says "You boys need to work this out!" which is a joke because it is his relationship with my mother that I am afraid Tim and I are going to become!!

The Future!

Tim and I have decided to call it quits. Although we're both devastated and upset, we both agree that we will always love each other and will always remain friends. I have no idea what the future holds for me, and I have to admit that I am afraid. That's natural, right?

Mama Mia!

Much to my delight on Saturday night--Oil Can Harry's Bar (my favorite nightclub) had "MAMA MIA!" night--they had posters and tons of promotional items to give away. I really do love ABBA, and I had so much fun dancing the night away with my friends. God, I love ABBA!

BATDANCE

Ah, my life...

As you all know, the Quilter and I have been talking again. Many of you think that this is a bad idea, becuase of what happend in the past. I mean, he's told me several times that Bi-Sexual Boyfried and him are OVER, but are they? They've had dinner two times in a row and I have the feeling that (maybe) I am going to be left out in the rain again. Why do I continue to do this to myself?

This Novermber I will be turning 36 years old. I've already started losing my hair and what hair I have is starting to turn grey (by the way, go fuck yourself ADVOCATE!). My weight continues to fluctuate, I have the voice of an eleven year old boy, I've never considered myself to be good looking by any means, I have no muscle definition, and...well, you get the gist of it.

My relationship with Tim has evolved into something that I just don't feel works for me anymore. I still love him, but I don't think I can spend another 10 years trying to make it work. What's an (almost) 36 year old (almost) single man in Bakersfield to do?

Settle.

Settle for being in either a loveless relationship or being second best to a bisexual.

WOW!

I am so excited about the comic con!

WW

Since my pal Viktor always beats me to the latest gossip and scoop, I thought I post a picture for the upcoming Wonder Woman animated movie.

STORM

If ASTONISHING X-MEN #25 was supposed to be return of STORM then we are in serious trouble. Storm would have never taken any shit from the White Queen! Ugh!

Stupid

Sometimes I wonder if I invite "bad" things into my life.