Ah, my life...
As you all know, the Quilter and I have been talking again. Many of you think that this is a bad idea, becuase of what happend in the past. I mean, he's told me several times that Bi-Sexual Boyfried and him are OVER, but are they? They've had dinner two times in a row and I have the feeling that (maybe) I am going to be left out in the rain again. Why do I continue to do this to myself?
This Novermber I will be turning 36 years old. I've already started losing my hair and what hair I have is starting to turn grey (by the way, go fuck yourself ADVOCATE!). My weight continues to fluctuate, I have the voice of an eleven year old boy, I've never considered myself to be good looking by any means, I have no muscle definition, and...well, you get the gist of it.
My relationship with Tim has evolved into something that I just don't feel works for me anymore. I still love him, but I don't think I can spend another 10 years trying to make it work. What's an (almost) 36 year old (almost) single man in Bakersfield to do?
Settle for being in either a loveless relationship or being second best to a bisexual.