BEVERLY HILLS ZOMBIE

Today is Juan's birthday and he's going all out for it--spending money like a drunken sailor (as my father would say). We're spending the night in some 4 star hotel in Beverly Hills and he's rented a private area for his actual birthday "party" at some club called THE ABBEY, which everyone has made it a point to tell me that it is the hottest club in West Hollywood. Although I know Juan would like to see me in fashionable clothes for the DRIVE UP THERE--but that's not going to happen. I'll be wearing my JUSTICE LEAGUE OF AMERICA t-shirt. I mean, really! I'm going to be in a car for 2 hours! Why would I wear Ralph LAUREN for the drive, when I could be comfortable in my jeans and JLA shirt. Plus, I just don't want to be one of those West Hollywood crowd types that all look like each other. They look like zombies or creepy clones. I want to stand out from the crowd..

Ugh

I'm sure these kids are all very nice people, but I am SO sick of seeing them everywhere!

C H A N G E

Revenge. On movies or on television shows we cheer when the star "gets revenge" on the person who in some way wronged them. I have been thinking about revenge a lot as of late. Much like Homer Simpson-- I have a mental list of all of the people I wish to see karma come and bite them on the ass.
I wanted all of these people to pay: the evil girls from my former job who made my life hell, The Quilter, Chris Bob, and a handful of others who I think that revenge is a dish best served cold. I wanted them to hurt like I have hurt and to cry as I have cried.
For some reason, I forgave all of those people listed above and prayed for them and myself. Time is so short and keeping all of that hate in my heart wasn't psychologically healthy or physically healthy. I won't get better mentally until I am able to let go of this desire for revenge or the desire to hurt people. I've got to work on one person: me. I have to let it go and let my heart be open to the two thing I'm afraid of the most-- feeling love and being loved. I have to truly begin to heal.

AND THE QUESTION IS...

There is nothing I find more sexy in a gay man is confidence in his sexuality. So why do I hear about so many of gay friends telling me they kissed or fucked a "straight boy". What's that even mean? It seems to be the hottest thing in porn and in clubs and some people wear it like a badge. I don't want to be rude to anyone, but I don't get it? How are they straight if you're going down on them or vice versa? I find gay men strong and sexy, but is this "straight boy" thing just a fad or has this been going on for years?

V

This new version of "V" has been getting great reviews, but in my 5th grade mind--I wonder if it will ever be able to compete with the two original mini-series and television show. The new female lead villain looks like she has the right stuff, but can she compete with Jane Balder's Diana? I'm a little worried because ABC isn't really known for promoting their science fiction/horror shows. Let's hope that ABC gets it right this time!