Today my mother and father sat me down to have a talk with me. My mom expressed her concern that I have getting very loud and argumentative with people. My dad says that from what he sees--it looks like I am looking for a fight. I was at a loss for words because in the past they've often told me to defend myself, instead of people walking all over me. My therapist believes that I am projecting my rage at people because in the past I never had a chance to. The funny thing is that I think she's right on target. I'm just so fucking sick of stupid people and I don't know when to shut up. I almost got into a fight with some stupid ass queen over nothing. It was an odd feeling. I wanted him to start something with me, so I could kick his ass all over the place. I don't want to be a Red Lantern. I just need to work through it.