Sunday, December 14, 2008

PROM NIGHT


My therapy session on Saturday was very long and intense. My therapist suggested that I bring Alex and Paul to the session, which I really didn't have a problem with. My friends revealed that they have been able to see through the many masks that I wear--which shocked me! I've always thought that I have been fooling them for years now. As they talked, I started to cry because I really thought that they bought my whole "I'm okay" mask all this time. I really lost it when my therapist brought up Quilter--because even though I know that they didn't like him, I never knew that they considered him to be "toxic" to my mental health. My therapist then said that while I am in treatment for my depression, she did not think that having a relationship (of any kind) with Quilter was helpful. I told them all that I wasn't able to do that--even though I have been telling all of you that I am able to put him in his place. My therapist then looked towards Paul and Alex and told them that if I had any chance of getting better, the Quilter had to GO. Alex and Paul assured her that they would take care of it. I am ashamed that I have been letting someone have that much control over me. I am ashamed that my friends have known the truth all of this time. I think that Alex is going to be the one who is going to tell Quilter to stay away, but I really don't remember all of the details. It means a lot to me that Paul and Alex were even willing to go to my session with me.

5 comments:

Wonder Man said...

It's for the best, it will make things better for you

Truthspew said...

Sometimes friends are good for the soul. I wish you all the best.

Alex said...

You know that I will always be there for you......No matter what

Christopher said...

You've got some good friends who truly care about you...but you already know that!

Paul said...

You will get through these tough times. You are stronger than you think you are! I am proud of you and thank you for letting me come to your appointment.