Tuesday, April 22, 2008

SIGH

Today was a really hard day for me. Yes, before you even say anything--I was thinking about the Quilter again. Fuck! When am I going to fucking move on with my life? My heart just really feels raw and something is preventing me from moving on. I just don't know what it is. ______ is really being so sweet and supportive. He really wants to make our relationship work, and I should too, because he is a good man who loves me very much. I love him as well, but why doesn't my heart skip a beat whenever I think about _____? We've been together almost 10 years and I have NO clue how to maintain passion or romance with _____. I know that I am very depressed and have been for the last year. I just have so many issues that I need to confront, but a part of me is too afraid to.

Plus, the Quilter still has my Green Lantern t-shirt and I want it back. He is NO Green Lantern.

3 comments:

Wonder Man said...

I'm sorry that you are having a hard time. Maybe it's time to face the truth like you said. Believe me, once you start that journey, things get better.

Projekt R3volution said...

We will just have to buy you a new Green Lantern shirt. I've already told you that you wouldn't want that one back because he's probably had to use it to clean up the anal leakage. Plus I think you would have memories of past events every time you looked at that particular shirt. We will get you a nice new one with no drama attached! Cheer up or I'll shove funshine enemas so far up your butt you'll taste them!

Happy thoughts!

Alex said...

OH no! F**k that ! you should round up the gang, go over there and get your shirt back...Since he wants things to be done, why not give you back your shirt and be done with the whole affair? Methinks you are not the only one holding on to something, and I don't mean just the shirt..