Beware your FEARS made into LIGHT

BRAWL AT THE 80's

2010-02-15T17:40:00.000-08:00

I was invited by The Quilter's current boyfriend Potato-Head to attend an "80's Prom" last Friday night. The prom was at a popular bar, so I took my boys Alex and Jon with me. When we got there, the first think I noticed was that everyone was in costume (80's styles) and Potato-Head and Quilter were both in tuxedos with ruffles (which were not in style in the 80's, but whatever...). Knowing that perhaps this was perhaps a set up, I took off my jacket to reveal my GOONS t-shirt. I loved the music the band was playing, so I grabbed Alex by the hand and proceeded to lead him to the dance floor where we danced the entire night away--much to the dismay of Potato-Head who noticed that The Quilter couldn't get off my jock. They ended up leaving, but we continued to dance the night away. The next day, Potato-Head called to see if he could come over the comic book store to talk to me (I said "yes", but he never came). I'm finding that facing my fears instead of running away from them all of the time is working out much better for me. I have no clue as to why it was so important to Potato-Head to invite me, but I'm sure glad that he did.

Girlfight Tonight

2010-02-07T21:52:00.000-08:00

Divas!

You would not believe the wild night I had with Paul and Alex last night! Quilter and (new boyfriend) Greg came to the night club last night to try and get some sort of a reaction out of me, but failed! Why? Because when they were making out or dancing closely to me Alex and Pual bloked them so I couldn't see them--and they ended up leaving. For those of you who are new to the story, I had met Greg a while back when he was dating one of Juan's friends. I thought he was such a sweet guy, until he started seeing Quilter. He sent me several texts that night asking what club I was going to be at and when he saw me, he made a large production over giving me a hug! Kids, I might be ugly, fat, and bald--but I'm sure as fuck not that stupid to believe he really wants to be friends with me. I don't think I have ever been that vindictive to act like I'm your friend, when all along I'm just trying to cause drama. I'm so glad that Paul and Alex didn't let me see the show. I feel so much stronger than I have in a long time. I love my friends!

Party

2010-01-31T01:27:00.000-08:00

Tonight I went to the birthday party of an old friend from my days at Target. It was really nice to see all of them and bring Alex and Tim along for the ride. Afterwards, Alex and I wanted to go dancing, but that was impossible due to the fact that the music sucked and there were 3 fights! After an hour and a half--we split. I was afraid that I was going to run into the Quilter and Greg for most of the night. What was I going to say? What was I going to do? I know in my heart that I made the right decision on staying with Tim--I just wished it didn't hurt so bad. Is something lacking in my life/relationship that's causing me to make decisions that hurt people? I'm not getting any younger, but I often feel like I am trapped in my early 20's--not knowing what to do.
I wish there was a book that would tell me what to do in cases like these.

TIME FOR CHANGE

2010-01-27T21:32:00.000-08:00

Faithful readers of my blog know about the problems that Tim and I have been having in our relationship. I told my parents that I was leaving him and my mother asked me if I was walking away knowing that I tried 100% to make the relationship work. It shocked me when she said that because I know that I had not been. With the Quilter (yes, him again) in the picture I have been thinking about my life and future with him than I had with Tim. I wrote the Quilter a very nice letter--asking him not to call me anymore, because I wanted to devote my energies towards Tim and make sure that I gave him 100% of myself before I called it quits. I'm really proud of myself. I sometimes think that I love the Quilter, but usually I find that I'm in love with a lot of smoke and mirrors that the Quilter gives me. I love Tim so much and the only way to make it work is to cut out the parts of my life that were getting in the way of things. I think I did the right thing.

2010-01-21T20:30:00.000-08:00

This picture makes me feel good.

Protest

2010-01-17T21:45:00.000-08:00

I just wanted to update all of you on how our protesting of PROP 8 went last week. First of all, I thought it was wonderful that we had more than 100 people to show their support on No On 8, although it seems to be the same people at every single rally. I suppose some people in the community just like to sit at home while others fight for them, but who am I to judge?

There weren't very many people booing us this time around although one car did shout "Men love women!" to which some tiny lesbian shouted "Fuck men!" and was quickly attacked a woman who claims to be "Bakersfield's Oldest Lesbian"--and I challenged her on that as I said my father is from Lesbos and is 84, thus making him"Bakersfield's Oldest Lesbian". She didn't find that as funny as I did, but maybe my humor is not for everyone.

He loves me/He loves me not

2010-01-10T23:42:00.000-08:00

Tonight I finally talked to Tim about our relationship. He asked me why I seem so distant from him and I finally said it. I told him that although I love him, I told him that I am no longer in love with him. I never understood what that saying meant until tonight.

He really didn't say anything. He asked me if there was someone else and I said "no". He told me that he loved me very much and thinks that maybe my pills that I am on are 'playing' with my mind. Are they? Why has our relationship evolved to the point to where I see him as my brother and not as my lover?

Tim is a great man, but I don't love him anymore. Now where do I go from here?

AVATAR

2010-01-05T22:52:00.000-08:00

This afternoon, Tim and I went to go see the blockbuster film AVATAR in 3-D. I have to be honest with all of you--I was not impressed. Within 15 minutes of the movie, the projector went dead and they gave us free passes to see the show and then pushed us into a different show to watch it. I was so bored--it seemed like I had seen the story before and I just could not get in to the movie. So, feel free to attack me for not being a fan--everyone else is. Yes, the special effects are Oscar worthy--but I'd rather rent it then spend $22.00 to see this one.

Bad Mood

2010-01-04T00:26:00.000-08:00

But he is, isn't he?

I mean, why do we even bother trying? I love Tim, but I am no longer "in" love with him. We don't have sex (going on 2 years in March), we don't really talk about anything important--and he has never given me a real reason to not be with him. Why am I not happy? What the fuck is wrong with me? Everyone around me seems to be so happy in love while I'm in pain. It hurts.

CHRISTMANS

2009-12-25T14:21:00.000-08:00

Ah, another Christmas Day is upon us--only this one seems so much better than last year's Christmas Day. I just feel so much better this year and am actually looking forward to seeing my family and walking the neighborhood looking at all the holiday lights with Tim. Tim did a fantastic job this year of getting me every single thing that I asked for (except for THE CHEETAH t-shirt, which was sold out of). Today we're just going to spend together with family and have a nice turkey dinner with my folks. What did everyone else do for their holiday?

ZZZZ

2009-12-01T17:25:00.000-08:00

I've known this for sometime now, but my blog is in trouble. No one even bothers to read it (accept for Vyktor) and although it is a good way for me to release stress, I am very jealous that Vyktor's blog is so FUCKING popular. What's his trick? What can I do better? Is mine really that boring?

BEVERLY HILLS ZOMBIE

2009-11-21T12:28:00.000-08:00

Today is Juan's birthday and he's going all out for it--spending money like a drunken sailor (as my father would say). We're spending the night in some 4 star hotel in Beverly Hills and he's rented a private area for his actual birthday "party" at some club called THE ABBEY, which everyone has made it a point to tell me that it is the hottest club in West Hollywood. Although I know Juan would like to see me in fashionable clothes for the DRIVE UP THERE--but that's not going to happen. I'll be wearing my JUSTICE LEAGUE OF AMERICA t-shirt. I mean, really! I'm going to be in a car for 2 hours! Why would I wear Ralph LAUREN for the drive, when I could be comfortable in my jeans and JLA shirt. Plus, I just don't want to be one of those West Hollywood crowd types that all look like each other. They look like zombies or creepy clones. I want to stand out from the crowd..

Ugh

2009-11-19T17:49:00.000-08:00

I'm sure these kids are all very nice people, but I am SO sick of seeing them everywhere!

C H A N G E

2009-11-09T22:05:00.000-08:00

Revenge. On movies or on television shows we cheer when the star "gets revenge" on the person who in some way wronged them. I have been thinking about revenge a lot as of late. Much like Homer Simpson-- I have a mental list of all of the people I wish to see karma come and bite them on the ass.
I wanted all of these people to pay: the evil girls from my former job who made my life hell, The Quilter, Chris Bob, and a handful of others who I think that revenge is a dish best served cold. I wanted them to hurt like I have hurt and to cry as I have cried.
For some reason, I forgave all of those people listed above and prayed for them and myself. Time is so short and keeping all of that hate in my heart wasn't psychologically healthy or physically healthy. I won't get better mentally until I am able to let go of this desire for revenge or the desire to hurt people. I've got to work on one person: me. I have to let it go and let my heart be open to the two thing I'm afraid of the most-- feeling love and being loved. I have to truly begin to heal.

AND THE QUESTION IS...

2009-11-01T20:03:00.000-08:00

There is nothing I find more sexy in a gay man is confidence in his sexuality. So why do I hear about so many of gay friends telling me they kissed or fucked a "straight boy". What's that even mean? It seems to be the hottest thing in porn and in clubs and some people wear it like a badge. I don't want to be rude to anyone, but I don't get it? How are they straight if you're going down on them or vice versa? I find gay men strong and sexy, but is this "straight boy" thing just a fad or has this been going on for years?

V

2009-11-01T00:50:00.000-07:00

This new version of "V" has been getting great reviews, but in my 5th grade mind--I wonder if it will ever be able to compete with the two original mini-series and television show. The new female lead villain looks like she has the right stuff, but can she compete with Jane Balder's Diana? I'm a little worried because ABC isn't really known for promoting their science fiction/horror shows. Let's hope that ABC gets it right this time!

I'll Fly Above It

2009-10-29T08:49:00.000-07:00

There are many elements to being gay in Bakersfield and I often wonder if those elements are found in bigger cities. Just yesterday I received an e-mail from a person that I thought was my friend--who basically told me that he really doesn't like talking to me. He said that I follow him around like a "rock star groupie" and he doesn't like it and I needed to "get over it". I was in shock since Alex (my bff) and I talked to him about 2 months ago and everything was fine. Suddenly I became the spawn of Satan and he told me that he wanted nothing to do with me.

I wrote him back and apologized if I did or said something that might have been considered inappropriate. I ended the letter saying that I will assume this is our last conversation and I would not bother him any longer. Then he flipped out on me! Telling me about all of the pressure he's under at work, etc.

In the past I might have been deeply hurt and gotten very depressed, but not this time. I can't make his issues my issues. I just don't care enough about him to allow myself to fall into this "depression" trap. Progress. It is being made, kids.

HALLOWEEN

2009-10-25T16:10:00.000-07:00

I'm going to be lLITTLE RED RIDING HOOD
for Halloween this year@

FUCK GAY PRIDE

2009-10-18T22:57:00.000-07:00

First of all, let me begin by saying that I did not go to GAY PRIDE this year and that says quite a lot because one of my best friends Juan Cerda was involved in planning the event. I was told it was very nice, and I'm actually sorry that I didn't go.I did go to THE CASA and let me tell you that my experience there was not a good one. First of all, THE CASA has always had the policy of getting in free before 10 pm. My friend and I arrived there at 9:30 pm and I noticed that the people in front of me were paying. The cashier told that they were charging $10.00 admission tonight in honor of Pride. So, no matter what time you arrived--you were paying $10.00 to get in. The Casa is normally priced $7.00, so I then asked the cashier if the extra $3.00 was going to a local gay and lesbian charity and I was told "no". So where did that $3.00 go? It certainly didn't go to Ruben (the hardest and sweetest working bartender I have ever seen in my life) or to Michael (who keeps the place clean). There was no air conditioning--so it was hotter than hell in there, so it certainly didn't go there. I'll tell you where it went--into the pocket books of the people who own the CASA. Being the only gay and lesbian bar in town, they were able to make an extra profit on a very special day, which makes me sick to my stomach. The CASA isn't even worth $7 let alone $10, so they made a ton of extra money on Saturday.At past gay and lesbian "events", THE RAINBOW ROOM let people who had wristbands from events get into THE RAINBOW ROOM for free. Why do we continue to support an establishment that basically just fucked us for $3 extra dollars? I'm no longer going to THE CASA, which is sad because I have made a lot of great people there, but last Saturday pissed me off. Shame on them.

SINESTRO

2009-10-17T11:54:00.000-07:00

Actor Jackie Earle Haley has been announced as an early favorite to play the evil SINESTRO in the GREEN LANTERN movie. I think he would be brilliant in the film!

PAIN

2009-10-12T21:25:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I just don't understand myself and why I do certain things. I feel that I'm a good person, but I seem to do bad things that one might consider "evil". It hurts to admit that about myself...

SEXY

2009-10-10T18:36:00.000-07:00

Why is it that some guys just have natural sex appeal, while others have to work at it?

Go Good!

2009-10-10T10:31:00.000-07:00

My latest Green Lantern picture!

Go Evil!

2009-10-10T10:29:00.000-07:00

My brand new sketch of Sinestro!

TREATS

2009-10-04T18:00:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, my pal Juan and I went to the LONG BEACH COMIC CONVENTION. I must say that I was rather impressed with this first time effort and everyone was extremely kind. It was very nice to once again see writer Marc Andreyko, who wrote the graphic novel adaption of the film TRICK 'r TREAT. He kindly autographed the novel for me and was shocked when I told him that I am looking forward to seeing the film for the first time on DVD this Tuesday. Everyone who has seen this film has told me that it is excellent, so why didn't we get it in Bakersfield? Why did THE MIDNIGHT MEAT TRAIN play for only 3 days? I have no idea of how the industry works, but has to be a crowd that is willing to see original ideas when it come to horror--even if the movie sucks.

HATE

2009-10-02T16:47:00.000-07:00

I will admit right now that I am stealing this brilliant idea from my pal Vyktor. Not in any order, but these are the top 20 things I am currently hating at the moment. Let's do it!

1. Most of the members of the Avengers titles

2. Attitude from people in West Hollywood

3. Madonna doing another greatest hits album

4. Smoking

5. Project Runway not being on Bravo

6. X-Men

7. Horror movies that should be rated "R", but are made "PG-13"

8. FEARnet not being carried by my cable company

9. Toby Keith

10. Kathy Griffin's book

11. People who think comics are for children

12. Tight shirts on skinny men

13. Tight shirts on heavy men

14. Transformer 2

15. Toy collectors who get crazy while in line for a toy

16. Hardcore Rap

17. Not having a good gay bar in Bakersfield, CA.

18. Rachel Zoe

19. The new Melrose Place

2o. Yes on Prop 8

Super Powers

2009-10-02T16:38:00.000-07:00

When I was a little boy, I wanted the SUPER POWERS action figures so badly! For my birthday, my brother bought me Martian Manhunter and I thought it was so cool because no one in the neighborhood had him. The ones I wished I had were FIRESTORM, BATMAN, and GREEN LANTERN. Oh, to be young again!

Too Much Fun!

2009-10-02T00:47:00.000-07:00

Juan and I at Gay Day at Magic Mountain!

Boo!

2009-09-29T00:38:00.000-07:00

I finally saw the trailer for the new "A NIGHTMARE ON ELM STREET" movie. The first thing that spooked me was when I saw Michael Bay's name on the screen, but really--let's get down to the preview which I thought looked INCREDIBLE. It seems like maybe this movie might just have the power to break "the curse of the re-makes".

SHUT UP

2009-09-27T19:53:00.000-07:00

Last night, Tim and I (and friends) went to see the movie PANDORUM at our local movie theather. Before the movie starts, usually the little adds say "Please No Texting" or "Please Turn Off Your Cell Phone" during this film. I kid you not when I tell you that this young man talked throughout the entire picture. People complained and the ushers came and he stopped talking. As soon as they left, he went right back on his fucking cell phone. Tim turned around and asked him to go outside, but he ignored him. Also, parents--if you're child is not comfortable in watching a horror movie or is an infant who can't stop crying, please do us a favor and pay for a fucking babysitter! After the movie was over, I went to see the manager and complained. I was shocked when she apologized! I have never had that happen when I have complained about a person talking about a movie before. She gave us our tickets back and hoped we would give them another chance. Be honest, am I being a prick about all this?

2009-09-23T17:41:00.000-07:00

I know that a lot of horror fans are looking forward to seeing the first offical preview to the new "A NIGHTMARE ON ELM STREET" when ZOMBIE LAND opens up. For some reason, I think I have already seen a preview for this movie, but maybe I was drunk--who knows? Here's a few helpful hints (which I have given before in earlier posts) that might help make this a good movie.

1. Although I don't believe that he was ever labeled a child molester (as some fans have claimed), do try to remember that he was/is a child killer. By the time Freddy became a brand name, that part of his history was dropped.

2. Freddy is not Rip Taylor. I don't want to hear little jokes from Freddy that make me laugh. I want to see Freddy slice his fingers off and say "..This is God!", I don't want to see Freddy playing video games and say "Now this is playing with power!"

3. At no point should the character of Nancy become the helpless victim. She's tough. I've always thought that the best horror movies work when the actress can challenge the killer. Admit it, the best part of the original HALLOWEEN is when Jamie Lee Curtis is trapped in that closet and pokes Michael in the eye.

4. Although the remake of FRIDAY THE 13th was fun, that story had so many holes in it that you could fall through them. Keep Elm Street as simple as possible. If I remember correctly, we're not told how Freddy gains the power to enter our dreams (I believe that is revealed in Freddy's Dead: The Final Nightmare), but the movie was so spooky, who had time to care?

5. The dreams should always be DARK. No ninja Freddy (ala Part 4), no Super Freddy (ala Part 5), and no Freddy turning into other people bullshit!

6.) Let's see as little of Freddy's face as possible.

7.) Vyktor and Alex--I expect the two of you to go into this movie with an open mind!

GO!

2009-09-18T17:05:00.000-07:00

Today is Friday! I thought I'd share one of my favorite comic book covers with y'all! Have a wonderful weekend!

YAY

2009-09-17T17:26:00.000-07:00

Great news! One of my favorite artist is going to be drawing me an original commissioned piece of both Green Lantern and Sinestro! His name is Mike McKone and he has worked on TEEN TITANS, FANTASTIC FOUR, and SPIDERMAN. I can't wait to see it!

SORORITY ROW

2009-09-12T00:45:00.000-07:00

First of all, this is not the poster for the movie SORORITY ROW. The poster for that particular film just shows the girls laying on top of each other and I thought that it sucked compared to THE HOUSE ON SORORITY ROW poster (which still isn't great, but..). Tonight the boys and I saw SORORITY ROW and although it was not the greatest of films, it was a 1000 times better than HALLOWEEN 2. Each girl has a part: the shy one, the bitch, the nerd, etc), but I think that some girls were much better than others. This is a fun little "teenage date" movie, but will not be considered a horror classic.

LONG LIVE THE LEGION

2009-09-10T17:04:00.000-07:00

Today was my first day training at the comic book store. It went really well because the owner was really patient with me (and to be honest, the only problem is learning who is a subscriber and how to work the register). It was a lot of fun, but the best news of the day is that Paul Levitz will once again return to THE LEGION OF SUPER-HEROES! I hope the plan is to make this title great again. Just for fun, I'm going to give you my 10 favorite members (in no particular order):

1. Timber Wolf

2. Saturn Girl

3. Polar Boy

4. Cosmic Boy

5. Dream Girl

6. Brainiac 5

7. Shrinking Violet

8. Sensor Girl

9. Computo

10. Ferro

THE REAL WORLD

2009-09-09T23:58:00.000-07:00

Well, tomorrow I take my first little baby step into

the 'real world' again--being a cashier at the local comic

book store DARKSIDE COMICS. I'd be lying if I didn't tell

you that I was afraid, because I really am. My therapist and my mother think it will be good for me to get out of the house. They are starting me out with 4 hours a week and I get paid in "comics", so it should fun. Please pray for me tonight--that God helps me overcome my fears.

OH LORD

2009-09-07T13:34:00.000-07:00

I just bought The Children of The Corn 25Th Anniversary Edition on blu-ray and I am loving it. There is a huge special features section and it is really good. Now I see that Syfy is doing their own version--which promises to be more faithful to Stephen King's short story, as the original movie made a lot of creative changes--like the couple and the two kids leaving town, when in King's version the couple is killed. Here's my problem, folks--are there no original horror ideas out there anymore? Halloween 2 sucked so bad, but I've read that they are now planning a Hallowen 3-D for next year. How? Why? I need answers people!

FRIENDSHIP

2009-09-03T18:03:00.000-07:00

I hate fighting with my friend(s), because you seem to remember all of the bad things or bad situations. You never remember the all of the times that were good--like talking for hours on the phone, going out of town dancing, and just being there for each other.

Almost 10 years ago, I lost my best friend Pam. I had just graduated college and I thought that I was some huge superstar and started hanging with a different group. Pam and I had a huge fight and we stopped talking for 10 years. What I didn't realize was I had lost the person who had my back, who would fight for me, who allowed me to express my homosexuality. I left her behind like trash--for people who did none of those things for me.

Thanks to the "magic" of Facebook, an old friend of ours was able to re-connect us and I sent Pam a long letter asking for her forgiveness. When she responded, I felt that she was my best friend again. I'm just sorry that I missed out on so many things with her--the birth of her 3 children and my marriage to Tim--where she should have been "best woman". I just wish I hadn't been a fool.

DEATH

2009-09-03T00:44:00.000-07:00

I just cannot take one more crappy "scary movie" this summer. Tim was sweet enough to take me to see THE FINAL DESTINATION 3D tonight and it was a total piece of garbage! I know that THE FINAL DESTINATION movies aren't works of art--they're goofy fun, but the acting and gore was so weak. I didn't even see a trailer for anything scary. Doesn't anyone want to take a chance on some new ideas and screenplays?

RAGE

2009-09-01T00:32:00.000-07:00

Today my mother and father sat me down to have a talk with me. My mom expressed her concern that I have getting very loud and argumentative with people. My dad says that from what he sees--it looks like I am looking for a fight. I was at a loss for words because in the past they've often told me to defend myself, instead of people walking all over me. My therapist believes that I am projecting my rage at people because in the past I never had a chance to. The funny thing is that I think she's right on target. I'm just so fucking sick of stupid people and I don't know when to shut up. I almost got into a fight with some stupid ass queen over nothing. It was an odd feeling. I wanted him to start something with me, so I could kick his ass all over the place. I don't want to be a Red Lantern. I just need to work through it.

HALLOWEEN 2 IS CRAP

2009-08-29T01:33:00.000-07:00

I just came home from seeing Rob Zombie's HALLOWEEN 2. I went into this movie with an open mind--in fact, I was curious to see how the characters had developed since the last film. I thought that since the original HALLOWEEN 2 took place in a hospital, Zombie was going to be give us a new twist (and yes, I did like his version of HALLOWEEN) and introduce us to brand new characters and setting. I'm sad to say that HALLOWEEN 2 is a complete waste of time and money.

First, let me tell you what I liked about the movie (and yes, I am stealing your format Vyktor!):

1. Danielle Harris and Scout Taylor-Compton can actually act! I really think that these two girls have the potential to be more than "Scream Queens", because I felt they were 'real'.

2. I found Scout Taylor-Compton to be very creepy in the final scene of the movie.

3. I also thought...wait! That was the only thing I enjoyed about this film. I shall now begin to tear it apart.

1. I love Sherie Moon Zombie! She has such range and depth that I could see her in non-horror roles, but I just thought she had no place in the movie and the whole bit with the horse was incredibly stupid.

2.There was no reason to replace Daeg Faech as young Michael Myers. I felt in the first movie that Daeg actually had evil in his eyes, and this new kid couldn't sell it. I read that the producers thought he was looking too old to play the part and has grown several inches since the last movie Um, isn't the adult Michael Myers a giant?

3. Most all of the kills were boring and pointless. Laurie has two new friends in her life, but they're not developed at all, in fact, I didn't care when they died.

4. Doctor Loomis is a complete asshole and adds nothing to the movie. By the way, he teleports from his house/hotel to the scene of the crime, because he shows up instantly.

5. I felt like we never saw Michael! He was always hidden in the shadows or had his hood on.

6. Although none of my friends found this funny, I laughed every single time they showed Michael walking back to Haddonfield. I mean, c'mon--he's gotta be a little tired at some point!

7. The movie needed a "hero" and there isn't one. Laurie is still the victim (which I am okay with), but it would have been nice to see someone take Michael on. The original Laurie (Jamie Lee Curtis) started to become a little bit of a fighter in the original HALLOWEEN 2. It just would have been nice to have a character to root for.

8. I'm glad this is the end of Zombie's Halloween movies. The first ten minutes of the movie were fun, so perhaps he should have gone with the whole hospital bit.

WEST CLONEWOOD

2009-08-24T13:42:00.000-07:00

Please don't turn on me, but I think I HATE WEST HOLLYWOOD! We (Juan, Alex, and myself) went down there on Saturday to meet up with two of Juan's friends--who I might add that Alex and I don't care for, but they were a last minute surprise. I was feeling pretty good about myself that night--I've lost a lot of weight with Jenny Craig and have gone from a size 42 jeans to a size 36, but I wasn't aware that a size 36 is still considered fat in West Hollywood. Juan hated the fact that I wore my THUNDERCATS belt buckle, but I didn't care! I have to be myself and I happen to love the THUNDERCATS.

We ended up going to that club called RAGE (as we did before) and the cover charge was $10.00--which I am told is cheap for West Hollywood. Alex and I were under the impression that we were going to OIL CAN HARRY'S for disco night (where the cove is $5.00) in Studio City, but Juan insisted we go to West Hollywood. I'm not the biggest fan of the music they played there and although I like Madonna (mostly her early stuff)--I think her latest song is pretty weak, but the gay boys loved it.

Juan's friends were very interesting--one of them looked like CHICKEN LITTLE and the other looked like Igoo (from The HURCULOIDS) and by interesting, I do mean dipshits. Chicken Little tried to grab my crouch 3 times. While dancing, he rubbed his ass up against my dick--and I pushed him off of me. He said "Wow, you must really have a small dick because I couldn't feel you getting hard!" and I responded that guys who shave their bodies and look like CHICKEN LITTLE have never turned me on, he looked over to Juan and told Juan that I was a cold bitch.

I couldn't wait to get the HELL out of West Hollywood (where everyone looks like they are fucking clones of each other!) and away from Igoo and Chicken Little. I might also add that we had to leave RAGE because the hottest Go-Go boy in the world knew Igoo and Chicken Little stormed off when he saw them talking.

So, when the night finally ended and we came home--I posted on my FACEBOOK page that West Hollywood really isn't all that and Igoo had the nerve to respond that "It depends who you go with I think. Chicken Little and I had fun!" and I snapped! What the fuck is wrong with me? I responded back saying "Wow! I thought you and Chicken Little were filming TOTAL DRAMA ISLAND they way he stormed out of the club and he saw you talking to the HOT Go-Go Boy and we had to chase after him!" Fucker. His only response was that it was a minor misunderstanding. Uh-huh. Sure it was.

Being gay is just like being in high school all over again. I didn't fit in then and I still don't. I'm proud to be a THUNDERCAT instead of some fucking clone.

ATTACK OF THE GAY LANTERNS

2009-08-24T12:57:00.000-07:00

Since my dear friend Vyktor is the only one who reads my blog (besides my best friends), I thought I would tell you a little story that happened to me last WEDNESDAY at my local comic book store. I've been going to this store since I was a teenager and I feel that I am really a part of the "comic store family". The owners and workers are very pro-gay and I love going there to buy things.

As most of you know, I'm on a ton of medication--which I try not to take if I know I am going to be driving, but that Wednesday I just wasn't thinking and took my pills. I drove to the comic book store and felt a little dizzy, so I asked the owner if he didn't mind me sitting on the couch for a bit. Of course he didn't mind, so we chatted back and forth as people came into buy their comic books.
There were about 5 people in the store (counting myself) and one of the customers said to the owner "...Brown and orange? Why are you wearing those FAGGOTY (I have no idea as to how to spell 'fag-it-t' colors?" The owners eyes got rather large and he said to the guy "Hey, watch what you say! A lot of my customers are gay and I want them to feel welcome here."
Now mind you, I wasn't the only gay man in the store--there was a 30 year old guy there who claims to be bi-sexual, but he pretend he didn't hear them. So, without missing a beat and pointing out myself, I said "Oh Chuck (the owner), don't worry about it! This is one fag who FIGHTS! And by the way, the color brown is in style this year!" The guy must have been able to sense the anger in my eyes because he quickly paid for his books and left.
I wasn't done. I then went up to the bi-sexual guy and said "Hey! Thanks for your help back there!", and he responded that he wasn't gay--he was bi-sexual! I said to him, "Oh, I'm so sorry. When it comes to sex and going to West Hollywood to party and fuck around you're gay! When it comes down to standing outside with a sign that says "No On 8" or helping someone out, you're heterosexual! Let's face it, you're 30 years old and if you still think that you're bi-sexual let me be the first person to say that the only thing that is "bi" about you is that you are all "by" yourself!" I got up and left.
After I cooled off at home, I called the owner of the store up and apologized for causing a scene in his store. He said that he had no problem with me doing what I did and not to worry about it. I can admit that I was in the wrong for getting loud and I should not attacked that bi-sexual guy, because all he was doing was buying his comics in peace. I was just so fucking angry.

PROUD OF MY TOWN

2009-08-16T23:13:00.000-07:00

Wow! One of my favorite horror magazines RUE MORGUE
mentions my hometown of Bakersfield, CA. We're featured in the
CORONER'S REPORT section:

"A 34-year-old Bakersfield, California man stands accused of biting his four-year-old son's eye out of his head and eating it. During the same spree of violence, the man also apparently attempted to chop of his own leg with an axe."

Sick, no?

HALLOWEEN 2

2009-08-13T00:35:00.001-07:00

As we get closer to the release date of HALLOWEEN 2, my best friend Alex was telling me that he prefers the John Carpenter version of Lori instead of Rob Zombie's version. I really thought the actress in Zombie's movie seemed more realistic. I could see that girl being innocent, but still hip enough to hang out with two popular high school girls. She had personality that didn't seem fake to me. John Carpenter's Lori is just way to goody goody for me to believe those 2 girls would ever be friends with her. C'mon, the popular cheerleader is going to be best friends with the school nerd? I don't think so.

MY REVIEW OF G.I. JOE

2009-08-08T00:46:00.000-07:00

I actually really enjoyed this movie which was complete garbage! It was fun and was everything that TRANSFORMERS 2 should have been. There are some real problems in the movie (spoiler alert): The Baroness is evil, yet turns good at the end * Snake-Eyes costume has a mouth with lips! * Cobra Commander is way too Darth Vader for my sake--and only becomes the commander at the very end of the film * Not as much Zartan as I hoped there would be. It still was a lot of fun!

WONDER

2009-08-06T01:56:00.000-07:00

I decided to read my old blogs this morning and it was really hard for to do, becuase it was probably the most stressful time of my life. I felt sorry that I didn't feel I could talk to anyone about my problems or put an end to an emotionally abusive relationships. At first I thought I was weak, but now I have come to realize that my weak moments were actually stepping stones into making myself a stronger person. I must admit that the QUILTER still calls me every once and a while, but I feel nothing for him. Not love. Not hate. I just feel like I am getting stronger and I no longer need negative energy projected my way. I'm actually starting to like myself! I understand that I can beat my depression and one day I will. Life is good.

TRANSFORMERS SUCK

2009-08-04T23:24:00.000-07:00

I really thought joining THE TRANSFORMERS club would be a lot of fun. I thought I'd see art work from fans, fan fiction, and other fun stuff, but there is none of that. I wasted $40.00 and I'm not even enjoying the club. I feel really stupid..

YO JOE!!

2009-08-01T00:07:00.000-07:00

The reviews of G.I. JOE: THE RISE OF COBRA are starting to come in and believe it or not--people are actually saying that it is a fun action movie that doesn't pretend to be something else. I'm mean, we want to see SCARLET vs. BARONESS!

SCARY

2009-07-29T22:17:00.000-07:00

As most of you know, I love horror movies. I always have and probably always will. Just give me a slasher with a hockey mask, a cursed house on a hill, or some sinster monsters--I will be the first one there to see the film and let you know how I feel about it. I don't think the year is starting off too well. DRAG ME TO HELL was fun, but it really wasn't too scary. I did enjoy THE ORPHAN (that little girl should get an Oscar for her role), but what else does the future hold for us?

1. The Collector

2. Rob Zombie's Halloween 2

3 The Final Destination 3-D

4. The Stepfather

5. The Hole 3-D

6. The Carriers

7. Jennifer's Body

8. Night of The Demons

9. District 9 (which I thought was sci-fi..)

10. Trick R Treat

The only one that seems interesting is Trick R Treat. Am I wrong?

FAT

2009-07-28T23:53:00.000-07:00

I just wanted to share my good news about my weight loss. Since starting the program I have lost 28 lbs and now weigh a total of 205 lbs! I'm really proud of myself. My goal is to be 195 lbs, but I am willing to go lower!

2009-07-21T00:25:00.000-07:00

Before my pal Vyktor destroys this movie (and sadly all of the

ones he did not like were bombs. I think this one looks interesting.

CHILDREN

2009-07-20T01:17:00.000-07:00

I really used to love INFINITY INC. as a child. I always liked the idea of super heroes having children to fight crime was sort of neat. I'm happy we still get to see POWER GIRL, NUKLON (Now ATOM SMASHER) HUNTRESS (although I know is a very different character now) and Obsidian(who is in the Justice Society title, but never appears!) Those were the days...

THE DEAD WILL RISE

2009-07-18T18:03:00.000-07:00

I have to admit that I thought that Marvel Comics' DARK REIGN was going to be the summers biggest book. It was fun and I really became invested in the characters. DC Comics had nothing really to offer, as I found the return of THE FLASH to be incredibly slow and boring. Then I come across THE DARKEST NIGHT from DC Comics. It was fast paced, the art was incredible, and zombie super heroes is really spooky! Check this title out!

G-FORCE

2009-07-15T23:03:00.000-07:00

All I can say is DIVA!

SHE'S A LADY!

2009-07-15T20:40:00.000-07:00

VALKYRIE--not only one of my favorite members of THE DEFENDERS, but such a cool character that no one seems to be using anymore. Bring back THE DEFENDERS!

G R E E D Y

2009-07-13T23:36:00.000-07:00

I have to admit that I am very disappointed that I will not be going to Comic-Con this year. With that said, I have been looking at various toy companies and E-Bay to still get my hands on some toy exclusives. Now before I begin my rant, let me first say that I realize that companies/E-Bay have to have people wait in those awful lines for the toys, but some of the prices that I have been seeing is ridiculous.

1. THE INVADERS BOX SET--it comes with Namor, Red Skull, Torch, and Captain America. At the convention, the price is $39.99, but various toys stores and E-Bay are starting off at $65.00-$110.oo

2. Classic Captain America is being sold at the comic-con for $9.99. I actually won the item and paid $20.oo (not counting shipping.

3. Soundwave: I just had to have him. At the con, he is being sold at $49.99. I paid $81.08

Please don't get the impression that I have had bad experiences with these types of groups. Some charge you what the original price was and some might make it $5.00 higher. I understand they need to make money, but this is getting out of hand..

No! No! No!

2009-07-09T19:37:00.000-07:00

OH MY LORD! Tell me that this is a sick joke!

"Got an unconfirmed rumor that at Leavesden Studios - there's been some Warner Bros. screen testing on GREEN LANTERN and that Justin Timberlake was suiting up for the test. That does not mean that JT is going to be Hal Jordan, but just that he's one of the guys that they've been seriously considering for the role of our Emerald Knight."

WAR

2009-07-08T23:31:00.000-07:00

I just cannot believe that this year is the 25th

anniversary of SECRET WARS! I still love this series and re-read every so often. I couldn't wait for my dad to take me to 7-11 for a slurpee and a comic! So many things took place in the 12 issue series--some good and some not so good. I'll let you be the judge of these events.

1. Colossus falls in love with an alien and ends his relationship with Kitty. As a child, this devastated me.

2. The new Spider Woman makes her debut and becomes a big with readers, but sadly after the series ended Marvel really couldn't find a place for her.

3. Klaw returns from the dead!

4. To celebrate the 25th anniversary the Marvel Universe Action Figures are offering two figures in one collection. The first one is Wolverine and Human Torch (I'm fine with Torch, but do we need another figure?). The next is Captain America and Klaw (which I think is a really good villain pick), and finally--Spiderman (are you surprised?) and Thunderball (which REALLY shocks me!). If it were up to me, I would have picked Mister Fantastic and Doctor Doom, Hawkeye and Klaw (or the Lizard). My final choice would be She-Hulk and Titania.

5. A brand new CAPTAIN MARVEL minimate will be debuting in Fall 2009.

GREEN IS GOOD

2009-07-08T23:25:00.000-07:00

I thought I would introduce my new GREEN LANTERN that I got today!

No Comic-Con

2009-07-04T00:45:00.000-07:00

It is with a tear in my eye when I tell you that Tim and I will not be going to Comic-Con International this month. We reviewed our finances and my mental condition (which is getting better I think), and we realized just how EXPENSIVE the trip was going to be. The exclusive toys that I wanted I have already bought from EBAY, so we wouldn't have had to wait in line if we went. Maybe next year..

THE END OF HORROR

2009-07-04T00:23:00.000-07:00

We had our first "movie club" meeting at BARNES AND NOBLE this past Wednesday night. It was really nice and everyone was quite friendly. A lot of people were talking about how sick they were of the remakes/new take on the horror classics. Although I enjoyed the Rob Zombie version of HALLOWEEN, it will NEVER scare me as much as the original did. I liked both MY BLOODY VALENTINE 3D and the new FRIDAY THE 13Th--just because I thought they were fun. Although I am looking forward to the new A NIGHTMARE ON ELM STREET, I already know what to expect and where the scares are going to be. That's why I have really enjoyed some of the straight to DVD movies, because even though they might be crap. Last night I watched MIDNIGHT MOVIE (which I bought at Wal-Mart for $7.50) and thought it was actually really good. The final question of the night was "Where do you see the horror movie genre going?" and I thought of a few things:

1. I think the zombie craze will be coming to a close by the end of the year.
2. All HOSTEL type movies will finally come to an END.
3. I think we are going to see a lot of horror films coming from Europe.
4. I don't believe that we will see any new horror icons (Jason, Freddy, etc) for a long while.
5. TWILIGHT is not a fucking horror movie.

X-MEN WRITERS ON PROP 8

2009-06-30T15:33:00.000-07:00

I thought that all fans of the X-Men would enjoy the answer to a question asked to them by a fan...

"Given the recent analogy of Proposition 8 in California and the similarly restrictive Proposition X, do you feel that the story being told in “Uncanny” adequately frames the realities of minority social politics?"

"This was a coincidental analogy, I just want to say – we had already started telling our tale before we'd become aware of the loathsome Prop. 8 (and I'm not speaking of myself in the royal "we," but rather by “we,” I mean Ed Brubaker and myself – Trask and the Coalition came from the two of us in one form or fashion I don't remember any more).
I don't know why that was important for me to say, but it was. Maybe because Prop. 8 is actual honest-to-god hate legislation that's keeping real, live, and loving people apart and we're a little piece of comic book entertainment? I don't know. I'm struck by the coincidence, but it's not meant to be a straightforward one-to-one allegory.
For my money, what Stan and Jack created with “The X-Men” is the perfect metaphor book. If you've ever been discriminated against, picked on, ridiculed, or rejected because of who you were or what you did, you can maybe see a little of yourself here. I think the X-Men – the whole line, the whole idea, not just my little piece of the pie – works as a kind of allegory-of-the-discriminated. I think that's why the line endures. At best, we're a small reflective facet of a very complicated jewel.
Does this story adequately frame the realities of minority social politics? I think that's impossible, because we're a comic book. Meanwhile, real people with real lives and real love are being really discriminated against and treated like less than citizens – like they are less than human, even. Any time any of our brothers or sisters are treated like less than yourself, the founding fathers and the framers of our Constitution turn in their graves."

G-FORCE!

2009-06-29T12:24:00.000-07:00

I love BATTLE OF THE PLANETS. My favorite
was JASON, probably because he was the
"bad boy" of the team.

YO JOE!

2009-06-28T19:57:00.000-07:00

I hated TRANSFORMERS: THE RISE OF THE FALLEN. I honestly don't think that the person who wrote it was a fan of the cartoon or comic book, because I felt no connection to any of the characters and could only tell a few of them apart from each other. Before the movie started, the showed the trailer for G.I. JOE: THE RISE OF COBRA. Now I must confess that I saw the "official novel of the blockbuster film" at TARGET for $5.00, so I thought I would read it and be crushed of how they ruined G.I. JOE. Get ready for your heart to stop, but I am shocked at just how much I am enjoying the novel. Yes, things in the novel are VERY different from the toys and cartoons, but the plot does move towards something, unlike TRANSFORMERS which went no where. Here are some SPOILERS from the novel, that may or may not make it to the movie. Once again--SPOILERS!

*DUKE and RIPCORD are not members of the team quite yet

*DUKE asked a young Baroness to marry him

*DESTRO does have a gold mask, but has not yet worn it in the book

*COBRA COMMANDER has yet to appear or be mentioned in the book, but Baroness is married to a man named Baron Leon DeCobray

*Those stupid robot suits that make the JOES faster really aren't mentioned too much

*ZARTAN may be the surprise hit character of the movie

*SCARLET is not romantically involved with DUKE (cartoon) or Snake Eyes (comic book), but appears to be interested in Ripcord

*COVER GIRL is a minor character

Let's Vote On "BLACK PEOPLE"

2009-06-26T11:13:00.000-07:00

TRANSFORM TO CRAP

2009-06-25T14:46:00.000-07:00

I really wanted to love TRANSFORMERS 2. The people who made this film should be ashamed of themselves. Although the first one wasn't the greatest--at least I could say it was fun. Here are just a few of the problems I had with the film, so be aware of SPOILERS!

1. I wasn't aware that TRANSFORMERS could have babies! What was that about?

2. I could not tell one robot from another robot, as I thought they all looked the same.

3. If TRANSFORMERS could transform into "people", wouldn't they all do that?

4. The Fallen and Megatron were in the movie, right? Because for a while I thought I was watching REVENGE OF THE SITH.

5. If any two characters had to die, those twins should be the first to go! Why did they have to talk like idiots?

6. Sam's parents were cute in the first movie, but way too much time was spent with them in Part 2.

7. One of the Autobots said "pussy" which I thought was incredibly tacky and in poor taste.

8. I was under the impression that ARCEE (the female Transformer) was going to be a main character. I thought she was in it for 2 minutes..

9. SOUNDWAVE. My friends, that was not SOUNDWAVE! They couldn't even get the proper SOUNDWAVE voice. I did like RAVAGE, but that's when I realized that this movie wasn't going to make it.

10. Finally, the trailer for G.I. JOE: THE RISE OF COBRA wasn't good at all, and that makes me sad because I think the idea has a lot of potential. I'll skip it.

TRANSFORMERS

2009-06-19T01:04:00.000-07:00

With the new movie coming next month and the 25Th anniversary in September, I would like to let the world know that as a child I really wanted the OPTIMUS PRIME toy. Although "classic" Bumblebee is still my favorite, I really did want that Prime toy...

TREK

2009-06-16T01:01:00.000-07:00

I am so into STAR TREK right now! I am going to go to the convention in August in Las Vegas. What was your favorite STAR TREK version?

HORROR CLUB

2009-06-14T02:23:00.000-07:00

My local Barnes and Noble book store is starting a "movie club" where each month they will discuss a different genre of movies. When I found out the "horror" was the genre, I quickly signed up for the club. The movies that they ask you to view before attending are:

NOSFERATU *

PSYCHO *

INVASION OF THE BODY SNATCHERS (1956)

HALLOWEEN *

SCREAM *

SHADOW OF THE VAMPIRE

Now, I know I'm a horror nerd and yes, I have already seen all of these movies--but were the right ones picked? Personally, I have always thought the 70's version of INVASION OF THE BODY SNATCHERS was much more frightening than the original. SCREAM? A movie I love, but other than bring "teen slasher" movies back, what else did it do?

FATTY

2009-06-04T23:53:00.000-07:00

I don't recall if I mentioned this, but I joined JENNY CRAIG again. Yep, I knew it was time when my size 42 pants were starting to get a little snug on me. In the four weeks I have been on it I have lost a total of 11 pounds! I'm also getting on my treadmill everyday and jogging 1 mile. I am really proud of myself, because some of the recent pictures of me have looked really bad. I'm proud of myself.

On a bad note, I have started having mini-panic attacks and have really been fighting my depression. The Quilter calls every so often, but I am so over him and his bullshit. He told me that he is still in love with me and I told him that a relationship with him would never happen.

Tuesday

2009-05-29T01:13:00.000-07:00

Is this our future?

THE FUTURE IS NOW

2009-05-29T00:39:00.000-07:00

I was really crushed this past Tuesday when the decided to uphold PROP 8., so I let Juan convince that I should go to a "peaceful" demonstration in front of Outback Steakhouse. Juan was passing out signs and I chose the one that said "MY GOD LOVES US ALL" because in my heart I truly do believe that. People would roll down their windows and shout "faggots", which I still will never get used to. One woman rolled down her window and pointed at me and said "God doesn't love you because of your sin!", to which my reply was the Vulcan saying "Live Long and Prosper!". I know it wasn't much but it was something. Some old lesbian came up to me and tried chastise me for responding back to the car. She said we want to make a good impression for the media and what if a reporter heard what I had said. This cute 22 year old girl said "I think we're safe if 'Live Long and Prosper' gets the media attention. I'm angry with how this whole thing turned out. We'd better get ready!

Women?

2009-05-14T22:40:00.000-07:00

I loved the new Star Trek movie, but my only complaint is there is never enough time for Uhura in any of the movies! I would like her to be more that SPOCK's love interest! It would be really interesting to see her have some great action scenes. The new actress playing her was great and seems like she can pull it off. What do you think?

Boo!

2009-05-07T01:29:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday night I went with the boys to Bakersfield's newest gay bar "902" or "The Beach Club"--shit, I don't think that bar even has a name yet. I had a few drinks and danced to quite a few songs, when Alex and I thought we would make sure that Juan wasn't getting into any trouble. He was seated at a table with quite a few guys who were all very friendly. After some conversation we discovered that we shared a mutual (former)friend and one of the guys at the table realized who we were. To this potential new friend, we had become THE LETHAL LEGION in a matter of minutes. Alex (Black Devil) was the evil intellectual one, Paul (The Unforgiven) was the bitch who refused to believe in second chances, and Juan (The New Kid) became the young guy who blindly follows us around. I should add that I was quite lost while this guy was talking about his friend. I had no clue what was going on, until Black Devil said the friends name again (for the sake of this story he will be given a new code name): THE CHICKEN-HAWK! The best part was when this guy finally figured out who I was. Yes, Bald Bastard had told you many things about me and you didn't know what to believe. This guy discovered that I was the one he should fear the most because of everything he was told. He was told that I was crazy, a bully, and a liar. He told us that Bald Bastard tried to get a restraining order put on me, that I was bullying him over the internet (well, that's true!) and that my former relationship with Quilter was all in my head. I thought I would get upset or at least, feel something painful--but I didn't. I knew the truth about the situation and didn't feel the need to explain my past to someone I don't even know. That's really good progress for me and I am proud of myself. To be fair to the rest of the Legion, I too need a new name. I will have to think of one. Suggestions?

MOCKINGBIRD

2009-05-04T13:22:00.000-07:00

Although I still think SECRET INVASION wasn't the greatest, I was VERY excited that the folks at Marvel Comics decided to bring back Mockingbird. She was the type of character who didn't need a man to save her--as she could take care of herself. I glad to see her back in the Avengers again.

SHUTTLE

2009-05-01T13:07:00.000-07:00

Finally! An original horror movie that is actually scary and disturbing. "Shuttle" is proof that there are original horror movies out there--instead of some crappy remake. Please give it a try.

DARKNESS

2009-04-22T14:56:00.000-07:00

I realize that I was one of the very few people who did not care for the recent SECRET INVASION from Marvel Comics. I found most all the Avengers titles really lacking in style and substance, but at least something great has now come out of that mess. The DARK REIGN books are fun! My particular favorite is the DARK AVENGERS which has some of my favorite super-villains taking the names of the heroes we have come to love (for example, Moonstone is now Ms. Marvel) and they still are just as crazy.
Check this book out!

X

2009-04-15T17:09:00.000-07:00

I love this picture, but Dagger's costume is a little bit out of control for me. Plus, I hate the fact that Cloak and Dagger are mutants/

BOO!

2009-04-13T23:02:00.000-07:00

The boys and I are going to Fango Con L.A. this weekend!

NIGHT OF CRAPPY HORROR MOVIES

2009-04-03T20:43:00.000-07:00

First of all, my friend Vyktor (who I think is the only person who

reads my blog!) is in the wrong profession. Vyktor has ORIGINAL ideas for horror movies, which is goof because it appears that no one in Hollywood can come up with something new. I don't think I can handle another re-imagining or re-make of another FUCKING horror movie from the 80's. NIGHT OF THE DEMONS? Oh lord, the original sucked and now we have academy ward winning actress SHANNON ELIZABETH staring in the new version. I would rather see Vyktor's movie (which you know is going to be scary) then see this crap. The upcoming DRAG ME TO HELL is the only horror movie I am looking forward to. Vyktor, please stop reading my crappy blog and write something that scares the shit of me..

OH NO!

2009-04-02T00:15:00.000-07:00

The big buzz on the comic scene today was that a "copy" the yet to be released WOLVERINE movie has been leaked to the public and has alreay been downloaded a zillion times already.

Thanks to a friend, I was given a copy of the movie--which still has a lot of wires showing and blue screen behind the actors. Of what I have seen so far, it looks interesting.

So Young

2009-03-30T19:41:00.000-07:00

R.I.P

TWILIGHT

2009-03-23T20:52:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday night, all of my gays were off doing something else and I had nothing to do. Tim suggested that we go to Target and buy the movie TWILIGHT on dvd. To be fair, I only read a few pages of the novel--because I found it to be very boring. The movie was actually okay, but I still don't see why there is so much hype around this series.

Witch

2009-03-16T17:23:00.000-07:00

Tim took me to see RACE TO WITCH MOUNTAIN this afternoon. I was surprised that I enjoyed as much as I did, because I love the original movies. The acting was not as bad as I would have thought it to be and the special effects were fine. I was even pleased with Dwayne Johnson's acting, but sadly he keeps his shirt on for the entire movie.

Last House

2009-03-15T00:32:00.000-07:00

I enjoyed the re-make of Last House on the Left. The rape scenes in this movie make it (at times) incredibly hard to watch. I thought the acting was good, although to be honest, the original killers scared me a great deal more.

SHOCKING

2009-03-11T22:42:00.000-07:00

Holy crap! This very cute guy asked me to meet him for drinks tonight. Look at him Quilter! Isn't he cute? Might I mention that he is 25 years old (and I am 36)! I must be dreaming..

2009-03-01T21:27:00.000-08:00

In the late 90's there were two really fun clubs in Bakersfield--the Casablanca and the Rainbow Room. You went to the Casa on Friday nights just to hang out and relax. There was never a cover charge on either Friday or Saturday, unless they had a drag queen show--then you were charged $5.00 for that night. It was practically the same for the Rainbow Room--there was never any cover on Friday night, but they did charge $5.00 on Saturday night because the club was packed with people. I remember having so many good times at both places. Eventually, the Rainbow Room closed and the Casablanca moved into a bigger place with new owners.

This new Casa was very different from the old one. They charged a cover price of $5.00 on both Friday and Saturday nights--even if the place was totally empty. The music also changed from Top 40/Dance to this really crappy rap music that is played for the entire night, and most of the staff working there are quite rude (although I should add the Ruben and Michael go out of there way to make you feel welcome). The boys wanted to go out and party last Friday and even though we were going to the Casa I was still looking forward to it. As we waited in line to get in, I noticed there was a sign posted "$ 7.00 Cover". Now, believe me when I say $5.00 is too much for this bar, but you've gotta be fucking kidding me with $7.00! I paid and walked up and joined my best friends Juan and Alex. I said "Are they fucking kidding me about this $7.00 cover?". Alex said that he didn't pay $7.00--he and Juan only paid $5.00! I got angry at this scam and marched my way over to the cashier. I told her that she only charged my friends $5.00 and payed her seven. Right away she got angry with me! She told me that my friends came early and that's why they got to pay $5.00. I told her that I have been with them all night and she charged me $7.00. She then said to me "Well, gather up all of your friends and have them come back here so they can give me two dollars!". I rolled my eyes and said I wasn't going to be doing that. I told her again that my friends only paid $5.00 and I was overcharged. I think she was starting to realize that I was going to become a thorn in her side, so she rudely threw the two dollars at me! Folks, this is not how you run a night club. I really wish that someone in Bakersfield would open a professional gay night club, in order to show the Casa how they need to start running their business.

YUM

2009-02-25T15:50:00.000-08:00

When I was 19 years old I was invited to a party being thrown by a older gentleman and his much younger boyfriend. I was so happy to be invited that I went to the GAP and bought all new clothes for the event. At the party there was a lot of food and tons of alcohol. I didn't really know too many of the people at the party, so I was very flattered when the host took me by the hand and introduced me to people. Everyone he was introducing me to was "somebody" --publishers, lawyers, police officers, doctors, etc. They were all so nice to me and even though they were much older than me they all seemed to be so interested in what I had say. One gentleman pulled me aside and said "..So, you're the new twinkie?" I told that I didn't know what that meant and he told me that every year the host of the party invites all of his friends to meet the new crop of young guys. A twinkie was "young, dumb, and full of cum" and I thought that was disgusting and so I left the party. Now, flash forward to today, when I discovered that the hosts of the party gave money to support "Yes on 8". What the fuck? How does this happen?

OH NO!

2009-02-22T20:49:00.000-08:00

Today as I was driving with Paul to Target, I saw the

Quilter (Azreal) and Creepy Chris Bob (Garamel) walk

into the store. I told Paul that I had no problem going in,

but Paul insisted that we don't go in because it would only

cause drama, which is fine. I still feel some need to prove to other people that I'm not crazy because of my breakdown.

STAY THE FUCK HOME

2009-02-15T23:00:00.000-08:00

What the fuck is up with people texting during movies? Tonight Paul and I went to see FRIDAY THE 13TH (yes, again!) and the theater was
packed with people. The girl in front of me was
texting every 5 seconds and the light from her
phone was distracting. Finally, I leaned over
and said "You know, that is really distracting.
Please stop using your phone." She didn't answer
me but I knew she was calling me every name in the
book. People--stay at home if you want to:
* Talk on your cell phone
* Quit texting
* You can't control your children
* You cannot control your bladder and have
to get up and do to the bathroom every five
fucking seconds

I'm sure if everyone follows the above rules we
will be okay. Thank you.

F R I D A Y

2009-02-13T02:28:00.000-08:00

At last--the new Friday The 13Th was shown at midnight and the boys and I were first in line to see it. Now, I enjoyed the movie because it is "a F13 movie" and most of you know that I am a loyal fan of Jason, but is the movie good? Yes--if you like boobies shown for no reason at all, bloody ends for college students, and a great night out with your friends. This is not the classic Jason we have seen over the years. This Jason is smart and very fast, in fact, he chases his victims down! Of course, the college student fit the usual stereotype: the rich bitch, the whore, the druggie, and the innocent girl. The story is very simple--go to Camp Crystal Lake and you'll die! Derck Mears is an interesting Jason and I think he was good in his role. The movie does have a lot of problems, as some of the actors are terrible and you really don't have time to care for any of them. A lot of the death scenes have been done before (and better). Personally, I thought the intro to Jason was way to fast and didn't give the viewers a chance to "understand" why Jason is killing monster. The ending (which I will not spoil) is weak and of course, open to a sequel. The movie was fun--better than some of the crap that has come out this year. See it with your friends and have a good time.

JASON IS OK

2009-02-12T11:49:00.000-08:00

Ah, the first review of the new Friday The 13th movie are starting to come in and it really isn't looking to good for the new movie. This review comes from Fangoria magazine, which gives the movie "2 Skulls out of 4 Skulls. "..The initial FRIDAY, there’s the briefly glimpsed backstory of the murderous Mrs. Voorhees, who lived by the machete and died just the same; from PART 2, there’s her grown son Jason established as a forest wild man with a sack over his head and a ramshackle home deep in the woods; from PART III, Jason has been given a more powerful physique and eventually acquires his trademark hockey mask; and from THE FINAL CHAPTER, the young victims-to-be are not camp counselors but vacationers, and the hero is a young man in search of his missing sister, an apparent victim of the marauding murderer.The new film also holds hard and fast to the rules of the slasher-franchise game. The first group of young people we’re introduced to (including the aforementioned sister Whitney, played by Amanda Righetti) do all the things guaranteed to inspire Jason’s wrath: taking drugs (or at least they plan to once they find the marijuana crop they’re seeking), having sex and singing along really loud to Night Ranger. Mr. Voorhees dispatches these interlopers right quick, and six weeks later, Whitney’s brother Clay (SUPERNATURAL’s Jared Padalecki) shows up in the area with a backpack full of missing-person flyers but gets no help from the squirrely locals. Meanwhile, a group of college buddies arrive for a stay at the waterside house of Trent (Travis Van Winkle), the designated jerk who nonetheless is the boyfriend of the designated nice girl (Danielle Panabaker). This gang also soon begins doing all the things guaranteed to inspire Jason’s wrath: taking drugs, having sex and topless waterskiing on Crystal Lake.Indeed, it’s hard to call this FRIDAY THE 13TH a remake, because virtually nothing in it has been remade, which is to say rethought or reconceived. Without being a shot-for-shot replication, it nonetheless adds no new wrinkles to the old formula; as the Jason fan I saw the movie with quite accurately pointed out, you could slip this film in between PART III and FINAL CHAPTER, and it would fit perfectly. Those devotees who ask for nothing more than the spectacle of Jason bumping off a fresh assortment of dimwitted/horndog kids (with plenty of gore and boobage unfettered by the MPAA concerns that plagued the Paramount sequels) will probably find the new FRIDAY more than satisfactory, and are welcome to bump the rating below up by a skull or more.But still, coming from the team (Platinum Dunes and director Marcus Nispel) who effectively and successfully revisited THE TEXAS CHAINSAW MASSACRE several years back and kicked off the whole ’70s/’80s-remake trend in the first place, this FRIDAY is a disappointment. Surely they and scripters Damian Shannon and Mark Swift, who worked a few nifty variations on the mythology into their FREDDY VS. JASON screenplay, could have given the diehards what they want while delivering something more creative, imaginative and witty. (The closest they come to an in-reference is a cop called Bracke, after author Peter of CRYSTAL LAKE MEMORIES, though his name is mispronounced.) Instead, the film is resolutely unsurprising and predictable; if you don’t know how the movie’s going to end after a visit to one character’s barn, you’ve probably never seen a film like this before. And the young protagonists are ciphers or stereotypes, hardly engendering the sympathy required to feel any real terror at their plight.Some slasherhounds say (and are already saying in this film’s defense) that caring about the characters and even being afraid for them is beside the point in a FRIDAY feature; the gory demises, watching Jason do his thing, is what it’s all about. To that end, newcomer to the role Derek Mears does do a fine job of conveying the required physical menace (fortunately, the filmmakers don’t seem to have taken seriously the claims of some of their number that Jason is really a tragic figure to be pitied as he callously slaughters everyone in sight). Though Mears moves faster than the slow-stalkin’ Voorhees of movies past, he’s not so active that he breaks continuity or dispels his power. The same cannot be said of Nispel and cinematographer Daniel C. Pearl’s camerawork, though, which too often favors shaky close-ups that make it hard to follow the action. And as far as the “creative killings” that became FRIDAY’s hallmark are concerned, this one peaks early, and the splatter, though graphic, doesn’t hit the heights of outrageousness that would really get crowds whooping and hollering.Instead, Nispel and composer Steve Jablonsky try to goose the viewer by accompanying Jason’s appearances with aural blasts that aren’t nearly subtle enough to be called stingers, and instead suggest the musical equivalent of a train hitting a stalled car. This in-your-ear approach gets real old real fast, and one yearns for the comparative grace notes of Harry Manfredini’s compositions for the earlier FRIDAYs. Potentially most disappointing for the buffs in the audience is the fact that his signature “ki, ki, ki, ma, ma, ma” sound effect, which is as essential an element of these movies as Jason himself, is only employed very sparingly here. Perhaps Nispel and co. eschewed its use in an attempt to separate their FRIDAY from its forebears—but if they were trying to give this film its own identity, they didn’t try nearly hard enough. Watching the end result, there’s never a compelling sense of why they remade FRIDAY THE 13TH in the first place."

NOAH

2009-02-08T10:41:00.000-08:00

I can thank my best friend Alex for turning me on to Logo's Noah's Arc. It was easy for me to fall in love with all of the characters and it quickly became one of my favorite television shows. Although I was surprised when it was cancelled, I was happy to see that a Noah's Arc movie would be released to give the series a proper ending. Alex brought the movie "Noah's Arc: Jumping the Broom" over to the house on Friday night and we watched it. It was terrible. The acting was bad, the plot was silly, and the characters lost all of their charm that made the show so special. The movie seemed like it didn't have a direction, so it was all over the place. I just hated it...

Pounds

2009-02-05T21:35:00.000-08:00

I lost 1lbs!! For a new total of 225.0 lbs. Yay!

2009-02-02T22:18:00.000-08:00

Paul and I went out to the Casa last Saturday night. As usual, the only music being played was rap music (which only the lesbians dance to for some reason). We sat down and I then looked up--right across from me was QUILTER and BI-SEXUAL BOYFRIEND! Fuck me! I caught his eye and waved and he came over. It was pretty obvious that he was getting a little drunk, so I wanted to make this as painless as possible. We gave each other a nice hug and talked for a few seconds. He touched my hair and told me that he liked it long. He even tried to talk to Paul, but Paul didn't even look at him. Later, more of our friends arrived and we soon left the Casa to go to some house party (yes, I know I am 36!). I was the evenings sober driver and had to watch Paul have a lot of fun with alcohol. The party was a lot of fun and Paul was harassed by some boy who wanted to dance to "Womanizer" with him when they played it and constantly called me Phil. It was a good time. The next day the Quilter called me at home to tell me how nice I looked and that it was really great to see. I told him that I really tried to say 'hello' to BI-SEXUAL BOYFRIEND, who I might add was looking at me most of the evening. The conversation ended nicely, but I still think I am in a much better place without him.

I AM CHANGING

2009-01-29T15:23:00.000-08:00

I have lost a total of 9 pounds as of today! Yay me!

FAIL

2009-01-29T15:18:00.000-08:00

Alas, I did not get the job that I interviewed for on Monday. They sent me the classic "..Thank you for your interest, but..." letter today. I am really bummed because I thought that I did quite well during my interview and the job sounded like something I would have liked to do, but sadly, someone else was chosen. This now makes 2 jobs turning me down in the past 3 months. Shit, I should consider myself lucky that I even got the interview. I just need a break!

CAMELOT?

2009-01-28T14:44:00.000-08:00

Camelot 3000 originally came out in 1982, but I never read it. Back then, I bought comic books with characters that I knew--but there was always something about this title that made me want to look at it. The local comic store would only sell this title to older kids, so I never even had a chance to even look at it.

Much to my delight, DC has released a hardcover edition and it was well worth the $34.99 I paid for it. It just made the legend of King Arthur so cool again to me! I'm glad that I didn't get the book back in '82, because it would have went way over my head. Check this one out!

I LOVE MANDY LANE

2009-01-21T23:05:00.000-08:00

ALL THE BOYS LOVE MANDY LANE isn't your typical Hollywood

horror movie. Unlike MY BLOODY VALENTINE, this film has no big stars or special effects. This film isn't a remake of some Asian horror movie nor is it a 're-imaging' of a classic horror movie. MANDY LANE is the type of movie that deserved to be shown in a movie theater, not on DVD. It actually has a story, character development, and a crazy horror movie ending. This movie never made it to Bakersfield, CA. That's sad..